My definition of perfect

Definition:  Being without defect or blemish; as good as it is possible to be.

How we perceive it: Only models and pretty popular are perfect. Most people see it that way. Even people that are popular and gorgeous and have so much in life, think…I’ll never be perfect.

Well here’s the deal guys…WHO GIVES A FUCK!? No one will ever be “perfect” in the high school definitions mindset its not possible. Take another look at that definition… “As good as it is possible to be.” So as long as you are giving it your all and being your best…you are perfect. Everyone is amazing and talented and gifted and beautiful in their own way and when they realize that and let it shine…they will be perfect. There are a lot of people that are perfect but dont realize it. Everyone puts themselves down to much. I used to be one of those people. I hated everything about me. I would never be pretty enough. Or smart enough. Or talented enough. Or funny enough. I was never “good” enough in my head. I didnt think I ever would be. Until i said “You know what..? I am who I am. And I am beautiful, I am talented, I am smart. If anyone has a problem with that screw them.” And I am so much happier now. I no longer hide me. I’m Courtney. People cant place me in a group. Because I dress how I feel. If I’m upset people would place me as “scene/emo.” When I’m feeling bubbly or happy people put me with the “preps/prisses/bitch” But in all reality I am Courtney Marie Dover. Yes, I have bipolar disorder. Yes I have schizophrenia. Yes I have attempted suicide. But…on the flip side. I have attended Denver School Of The Arts because I am  a gifted vocal musician. I have been in love. I have had my best friends. I have so many things going for me. I appreciate life for what it is. Yes, I have gone through a lot of shit to get here. But I can finally brush it off. I can finally feel “perfect” I am my own definition of it.

Courtney’s definition of perfect: Being happy with who you are and realizing that nothing else matters. If you love you, and are happy with you, other people will be too.

^ that…is perfect.